The theme of this week has definitely been choices in light of God's will. How do I choose the right pathway? How can I guarantee myself future and present happiness? Most days I feel like a character on a board game. This board game is intense though. I am the star. I have many options in front of me, and there is only one exactly right combination of choices that will make me blissfully happy for all eternity. Ag, the STRESS. I suppose this all comes from finally approaching the point in life where these decisions are imminent. I miss the high school days, where the biggest decision was which outfit would make me look the cutest. Those days are so far gone. And they left my wardrobe crying. =) In 2 short years real real life is going to smack me in the face, and I better be ready for it. It already has been poking me and making me really uncomfortable. I know that I just need to let go and trust God more. But it is really hard, when the fear is that you're gonna screw your whole life up. I wish that God would direct me in a more evident way. I am asking for lightening bolts here. I am not a patient person. I like action, and I get things done. It is hard to wait for my life to be revealed to me.

And ironically I am revealing my life as I know it, to no one in particular right here. Well, I tried revealing it to someone in particular, but that person didn't even bother to read it. Despite having bothered me for the url and everything. Sometimes these things just shoot me back to high school, when I tried to get my little brother to care and he never did. (He was cooler than me, and being cool was a big deal to me.)