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It has been over a year since I have written anything on this poor blog. I am sure he is feeling lonely and unloved. Life has a way of getting busier and more involving after high school ends. Everything becomes more real and in your face. Decisions become more permanent. They could last forever. Mistakes could last forever too. Even a simple decision on what classes to take next semester might end up wasting $3000. That's a lot of money that could make me very happy on a trip somewhere! All of this whirlwind of responsibility rubs me the wrong way sometimes. I wish that I could just whine and cry my way into a candy bar at the grocery store, and then be simply happy. That isn't the way it is though. Despite how bleak I am making it sound, I am very excited for what is ahead of me. I am excited to discover and then be confident in my niche in the world.

Goals:
1. Love other people more, myself less.
2. Open up more.
3. Write more.

My life is going well. I am very happy to be saying that right now, as it surely is not always the case. I came through the semester from hell (Fall 2006). I was working 20 hours a week, taking Biology with a 4 hour lab, Organic Chemistry with a four hour lab, and a 2.5 hour long physics class every MWF. I also took honors Philosophy and a seminar. This was a mistake. I came out with fine grades suprisingly. I think there was a lot of curving going on. =) I was so distraught from that semester that I begin planning my departure from UST. I thought that the animal science program at the U would offer me an awesome alternative to biochemistry. I was set on this idea. I enrolled at the U, visited, and thought that I was making a great decision. Then the weekend before classes began at UST, I was at work and began to second-guess myself. Is this really what I want? What do I want? I decided to stay at UST. I enrolled in three non-science classes and an honors seminar. I have been really enjoying it. I stumbled onto the Catholic Studies program, which has re-ignited my desire to become greater than I am. And as an after-thought, I applied for a resident advisor position at UST. This involves leading a floor of women in exchange for a single room and board. I thought that, due to living off-campus for the last year, I had no chance. Apparently the residence life staff thought diffently because I was picked out of 130 people to be one of next year's 22 new RAs. I can't believe the way that life twists and turns sometimes.

Right now I am just focusing on my studies and being open to what I should be doing in my life. I know that life is short, but it can be beautifully short, if you give it up to the right Guy.

I am still dating Tim. It was just our 21 month anniversary, which is a long time to me! We have our ups and downs mostly due to my emotional distress at times. He's amazing. Another man in my life, my little brother Chris, is done with his last season of high school basketball. I never wanted it to end! I love watching him play! Hopefully, he will come to UST next year.

I know now that enjoying life comes not from doing what is expected of you, but from doing what you were made to do. I can't assume that I already know this because I don't. God reveals it in His own time. Just let me be patient.